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Sunday, December 28, 2008

hi xanga. just visiting.

wow. this feels incredibly eeeerrrie! I HAVEN'T POSTED A XANGA ENTRY IN SOOOOO LONG!

i dont think i'm gonna start it back up again, but may i mention that it brought me a lot of joy skimming past old entries and reading my subscriptions page and finding out that people are STILL USING IT!?! i think xanga was the peak of my blogging experience. i remember posting a lot and reading comments and reading about other people's lives. THAT WAS FUN. but it is kind of boring now since almost none of my friends use it. and the ones that do use it i hardly ever see anymore. it makes me sad. dude, xanga makes me feel emo now.

update on my life i suppose:

i am in Texas with the fam. it has been more refreshing than the past winter's in which i have come. i am finding that there are less people to miss because i'm not really close to anybody anymore in Columbus. its not that i dont have friends. God has given me a lot. but unfortunately no close ones; no significant other either to my fortune or dismay.

i vaguely remember past winters. i do remember how often conflicts would come up with dad or my bro, and then I would hate them and want to leave asap. but this year is different, it really is. yeah, a lot of the weaknesses that have been with my dad for as long as i can remember are still there, my brother too. but i guess i've grown a tougher layer of skin and those things dont phase me anymore. i love being here. i dont want to leave this time.

school is going well. i'm down to two more quarters. next quarter's schedule is PACKED. i'm also thinking about adding a credit or two of Arabic because i think God will open the doors for me to go do mission work in the Middle East...someday.

church is going. ministry is going. so much is going in the Kingdom of God. i have yet to find out where God will place me once i graduate. a really big part of me wants to just stay here in Texas. there is so much need in my parents' church. and my family is here. a really big part of me wants to stay in Columbus and continue on in the vision that God has for that city. and a sliver of me, just a sliver, wants to do neither. that sliver of me is wanting to do the unthinkable, to jump out into uncharted territory, to do something outside the states. I guess thats why I'm taking up Arabic.

ok. so much for a short update. love you xanga and xangers. blessings!

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Friday, May 30, 2008

expansion.

i thought my life course was taking me one way. it seems like God has other plans for me. i am not bitter about Him changing my plans, because He is increasing my passion too. There is a reason why He created us the way we are. i dont know how to explain whats happening. its a new thing. maybe i'll wait a little before i write so that i can sound coherent. yeah. new beginnings. its 2008!

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Monday, April 21, 2008

Thoughts from Blaise Pascal

Every one knows that the sight of cats or rats, the crushing of a coal, etc., may unhinge the reason. The tone of voice affects the wisest, and changes the force of a discourse or a poem.

This evil is no doubt greater and more common among the higher classes; but the lower are not exempt from it, since there is always some advantage in making people love us. Human life is thus only a perpetual illusion; men deceive and flatter each other. No one speaks of us in our presence as he does of us in our absence. Human society is founded on mutual deceit; few friendships would endure if each knew what his friend said of him in his absence, although he then spoke in sincerity and without passion.

The consciousness of the falsity of present pleasures and the ignorance of the vanity of absent pleasures, cause inconstancy.

Time heals griefs and quarrels, for we change and are no longer the same persons. Neither the offender nor the offended are any more themselves. It is like a nation which we have provoked, but meet again after two generations. They are still Frenchman, but not the same.

He no longer loves the person whom he loved ten years ago. I quite believe it. She is no longer the same, nor is he. He was young, and she also; she is quite different. He would perhaps love her yet, if she were what she was then.

If a soldier, or labourer, complain of the hardship of his lot, set him to do nothing.

Two faces which resemble each other make us laugh, when together, by their resemblance, though neither of them by itself makes us laugh.

How useless is painting, which attracts admiration by the resemblance of things, the originals of which we do not admire!

Noble deeds are most estimable when hidden. When I see some of these in history, they please me greatly. But after all they have not been quite hidden, since they have been known; and though people have done what they could to hide them, the little publication of them spoils all, for what was best in them was the wish to hide them.

Cleopatra's nose: had it been shorter, the whole aspect of the world would have been altered.

It is not disgraceful for man to yield to pain, and it is disgraceful to yield to pleasure. This is not because pain comes to us from without, and we ourselves seek pleasure; for it is possible to seek pain, and yield to it purposely, without this kind of baseness. Whence comes it, then, that reason thinks it honourable to succumb under stress of pain, and disgraceful to yield to the attack of pleasure? It is because pain does not yield to the attack of pleasure? It is because pain does not temp and attract us. It is we ourselves who choose it voluntarily, and will it to prevail over us. So that we are masters of the situation; and in this man yields to himself. But in pleasure it is man who yields to pleasure. Now only mastery and sovereignty bring glory, and only slavery brings shame.

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Saturday, April 12, 2008

The 40 days of 24/7 Prayer (are not over)

There is one body and one Spirit--just as you were called to one hope when you were called--
one Lord, one faith, one baptism;
one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all.
Eph. 4:4-6

So...Ohio State was supposed to finish the 40 days of continuous prayer in Ohio, but the University of Cincinnati has stepped up for an additional 7 days of continual prayer! Praise the Lord! Its not gonna be over til God says its over.

As for OSU, I'm just altogether amazed by the awesome things our God did this week! He is soooo wonderful! So excellent! So great! So worthy of our praise! It dawned on me on the last day, while we were praying and worshipping at the Oval, that God has supreme authority over all things happening in this university, and that it is inevitable for His light to shine on our campus..

Two nights before the prayer tent was set on the Oval, a prayer vigil was held on the Oval to remember the victims of the genocide in Rwanda. About 15-20 people showed up to pray. As we were walking toward the group that night, I felt the Holy Spirit there. I have never felt God so intensely in that place, or any public place on campus ever before. Sarai told me the same thing after the prayer meeting. We remembered that this is what we had been praying for earlier in the week, and GOD ANSWERED OUR PRAYER! God was there at the Oval all throughout the week of prayer.

At the prayer house, people from many different ministries were here all the time. There was not a moment when the house was not full of prayer, praise, or fellowship. And even now I smile. I'm at the prayer house and there is one girl praying in the community room and another in the boiler room...on a Saturday afternoon. Its glorious. God is well-pleased. It doesn't feel like the week of prayer is over. I know, in fact, that I cannot go back to a mediocre prayer life or to no prayer life at all. No, the quality of my life is defined by my time spent with Jesus, my Savior.

The last two days of the week of prayer we were out on the Oval. Oh my gosh, that was amazing. Our days started early, ended late, but were oh so worth it. Intervarsity's "Do You See Orange?" Aids Awareness Campaign was such a blessing. You would step into the Oval and there were orange shirts everywhere. So many conversations about God took place there. The gospel was shared over and over and over again. Prayer warriors prayed in the tent. Non-Christians got prayed for. People came to know Christ and re-dedicated their lives to Christ there. There was continuous worship going on at the prayer tent. God saturated the Oval with His presence. On both nights before taking the tent apart we just worshipped God at the Oval at the top of our lungs. I looked around at the Christians, and man, we looked like we were insane. Everyone worshipped loudly and without shame. It was beautiful. People on the Oval looked on, surprisingly....reverent. God was there. He is still here. His presence lingers. He is pressing in. The week of prayer just sparked a new passion in us to pray, to share the gospel and to seek justice. THANK YOU JESUS!

What impacted me the most?

I'm still processing this in my heart. This concept of unity blows my mind and makes my heart wanna explode. On the last night we closed the Week of Prayer out on the Oval and we sang the Christian version of Carmen Ohio. Visit ESM's facebook for the lyrics. I felt in that moment, that someday, SOON, the whole campus will be singing that song out on the Oval, in the stadium, and these lyrics will replace Carmen Ohio. There will be a revival in the OSU stadium and people will encounter Jesus there instead of the fleeting thrill of a football game. GOD WILL RECEIVE ALL HIS DUE GLORY.
That night we closed the week of prayer in unity and fellowship that didn't dissolve seconds after the prayer was over. No, There was so much love there in the center of the Oval. Brothers and sisters of all kinds were there. Red and yellow, black and white. Young and old. All of us there, none of us sticking to our own as it tends to happen everywhere. No, we praised, worshipped, laughed, prayed and ate TOGETHER. One Lord, One Faith, One God and Father of all. This entire week, without a doubt, was purely designed by the Lord our God. THANK YOU JESUS!

This is the way life should be. And I'm finding that it will keep becoming more and more like this. Not just at Ohio State, but in Ohio and all over the world too. We are not a ministry that focuses on racial reconciliation. We are not a ministry focused on numerical growth. We are focused on JESUS, and it turns out that numerical growth and racial reconciliation are just by-products of loving JESUS. We just want JESUS. When Jesus is the center, we cant help but be drawn to Him and to love one another. I noticed this this past week, and even today at Over the Rhine. God brings young and old, black and white, rich and poor TOGETHER to love Him, and to love one another. Thus sayeth the Lord,

By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.
(John 13:35)

lets press on to love Him and one another more!!!!!!!!!!

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Thursday, April 03, 2008

its never too late.

a good friend forwarded this e-mail to me this afternoon. must've been sent from God b/c its totally applicable to my life. its never too late to change. never too late to make improvements. never too late to start over...and make your wrongs into rights.

Today we are fasting from the thought that says: "IT'S TOO LATE."

We are so "time conscious". We allow time to limit us and define for us what we're capable of; or what God can do in our lives.

It's often engrained in us that it's too late to change; too late to start a new career; too late to save your marriage; too late to recover from a major mistake; too late to start over again; too late to be forgiven or have a second chance.

The truth is: IT'S NEVER TOO LATE!

When you realize that it's not too late, you have hope. You take action. You move forward. You stop thinking that it's futile and useless to do the right thing.

It's not too late...

* to turn your finances around.

* to recover from a tragedy or mistake

* to truly surrender your life to God and begin again!

* to take better care of yourself

* to apologize

* to start saving

* maybe you have developed a habit or dug yourself into a real bad hole. it's not too late to get out of it.

* to change the way you see yourself.

1. UN-DECIDE that it's too late for these things to change. Un-decide that you can't recover! Un-decide that the damage is irreversible.

2. Meditate on the fact that God created time, and He can multiply it. The earth and sun stood still for Joshua 10:12-13, "And Joshua spoke to the Lord at Gibeon... and said in the sight of Israel, 'Sun, stand still at Gibeon, and moon in the valley of Aijalon'. So the sun stood still and the moon stopped."Joshua had control over time, for God's purpose. We need to start thinking that way - we have control over time. It doesn't control us!

3. Today, think about the great cloud of witnesses, for whom it wasn't too late:

* It wasn't too late for Abraham to be a father at 99 years old.

* It wasn't too late for Sarah to be a mother at 90!

* It wasn't too late for Peter after he denied the Lord 3 times.

* It wasn't too late for Paul after he had persecuted the church and killed other Christians! God later used him to write two-thirds of the New Testament after the book of Acts.

* It wasn't too late for the woman caught in adultery (John 8:1-11), the woman with the issue of blood (Mark 5:25-34), or the man who was lame at Bethesda pool for 38 years. (John 5:1-10)

* In business, it wasn't too late for Ray Kroc, who at the age of 56 started the first McDonalds...(How did that work out for him?)

4. Meditate on God's mercy and grace. Lamentations 3:22 says, "His mercy is new every morning..." Hebrews 4:15 says, "Come boldly to the throne of grace to receive mercy and grace in your time of need." Mercy is when God doesn't give us the judgment that we DO deserve. And "grace" is when God gives us the goodness that we don't deserve.

5. Adjust your thinking here: Stop making excuses for why it's too late. God doesn't listen to our excuses. Realize, HE IGNORES OUR EXCUSES, and EXPECTS us to believe in His faithfulness. We claim we have low self-esteem or a disability. (Moses wasn't confident and he had a speech impediment, but God gave him chance after chance to be used by Him to deliver God's people.)

6. Meditate on the verse in 2 Timothy 2:13, "Even when we are faithless, He remains faithful. He cannot deny Himself."

7. Ask God for more time, and another chance. Hezekiah did in 2 Kings 20:1-6. When Hezekiah turned back to the Lord, and asked for a second chance, God told him, "I have heard your prayer. I have seen your tears. Surely I will heal you...And I will add to your days FIFTEEN YEARS." If he did it for Hezekiah, He will do it for you!

THINK IT & SAY IT

I believe that it is not too late for things to improve in my life, and radically turn around.

I believe in the God of 2nd chances. I can recover and there is nothing that God won't turn around in my life.

It is a fact that God created time and He can multiply it for me.

I am not controlled by time. By God's grace, I control it!

I adjust my thinking, and accept that God ignores my excuses and inabilities - but He gives mercy and grace in my time of need. He is faithful even when I haven't been. I think on His goodness and dwell on His kindness. God is no respecter of persons, therefore if He multiplied time back for Joshua and Hezekiah, He will do it for me!

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